our deepest fear
"our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. we ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? actually, who are you not to be? you are a child of god. your playing small doesn't serve the world. we were born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us. it's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
i can remember being 10 years old at summer camp and choosing against one particular elective activity because--and i can still hear the rationale in my head--i thought everyone would choose it, so there wouldn't be any point in my choosing it for myself because i'd never be so lucky. it was the one thing that i most wanted to do. it was the one thing that i should have made every effort to give myself the chance to do. and i see now that i was afraid--afraid of doing what i wanted to do. and i'll forever have the lesson of the irony that hardly anyone else chose it, and it would have been mine for the asking.
some might see in my recently-past choices an excess of doing what i wanted to do, but i'd caution them at taking too much at face value. i still see in every choice the far greater non-choice, and that very same fear of the light.
it's been my good fortune to have been given a chance for redemption. i wondered if i should have said something about forgiveness, but i realize now that, chasing into the light as jackson browne once sang, that the forgiveness has to happen within ourselves. i'm very close to the conclusion that there is no such thing as forgiveness that happens in any other way. (the most powerful salve for all that is wrong in our lives being, simply and sincerely, like your life depended on it, because it does, "i'm sorry", followed by whatever it takes to deserve and achieve self-forgiveness, which is essentially what most people take as sufficient for others' forgiveness, which sometimes ensues, but, what is that, really...)
"chasing her into the light". it's my new life's work.
if only everyone else could distinguish their fear, realize the fullest extent of their inner beauty and potential, and find their true life's goal.
(moriarty has the morning off...)