life is never fair...

the soundtrack to my childhood was punctuated by sibling exclamations ("it's not fair") and parental and grandparental responses ("it's not supposed to be fair") that have over time become a mantra for me. i don't know how people who perceive "intent" behind the cosmos can even bear to live in this world--it's so often so brutally unfair as to put any faithful person to the point of utter despair. today is again one of those days.

i learned last night that a story of tragedy i'm sure we all read with due yet momentary sympathy from the newspaper the day before is something much more real to a family i care very much about. it's profoundly unfair. it tears at my heart that there isn't anything more that i can do or imagine to be done--it's still too early to know anything more than just "wait and see". and so we wait, and so we shall see.

every day stories like this are in the paper, and every day families are tested for their resiliency and their mettle. a fabric of friends is sometimes all there is upon which to rely in this unfair world, to go with whatever faith can muster from beyond it. i happen to believe in the power of positive thinking. call that faith, call it whatever makes you most comfortable. but it's sometimes all that can be done while one is waiting and seeing through all the doing of everything that can be earthly done.

there is indeed more than can be met with our eyes...

all good thoughts